H e a r t S o n s & H e a r t D a u g h t e r s of A l l e n G i n s b e r g

N a p a l m H e a l t h S p a : R e p o r t 2 0 1 4 : A r c h i v e s E d i t i o n

MARC OLMSTED

Die All The Time

Today I realized the teenage girl

striking in black scarf

was probably getting chemo

so much like my baby sister

dead 23 years

yet I choked back tears

heart's bright wound

still burning

II.

I buy childhood comics on line

GORGO the giant lizard

KONGA the giant ape

read when I was 7 -

my mother now slips away no memory of me at all

III.

I bought FAMOUS MONSTERS also read pre-teen

& now I'll be 50

Actors that I grew up watching

die all the time

I bought DIARY OF A MADMAN cheap Vincent Price tape my actor dad

has big scene with him — movie not even on DVD, companion to my

TWILIGHT ZONE "To Serve Man" father scientist, TOUCH OF MINK

where exasperated Dad has a scene with Cary Grant — my Dad Price Grant

all dust — will I lose my mind on hospital death bed dream I'm reading

GORGO with eyes open? at least without non-virtue & when the faulty body

falls away Big Mind returns but for us left behind death is cruelest what it

steals in pieces

9/24/03