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e a r t S o n s & H e a r t D a u g h t e r s of A l l e n G i n s
b e r g
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a p a l m H e a l t h S p a : R e p o r t 2 0 1 4 : A r c h i
v e s E d i t i o n
LESLÉA NEWMAN
Near Death Experience
End of August. New York City. I wake up. In a sweat. Hot as hell. Turn back over. Lift my head.
See
the clock. Ten past nine. Late for work. Throw on
clothes. Grab my purse. Slam the door.
Take
the stairs. Hit the street. Hit a wall. Why the crowd? God it’s hot. Can’t push
through.
“What
the deal?” “Check it out.” I look up. See a man. On the roof.
“Says he’ll jump.” “Oh my
God.”
Here come cops. One goes in. One stays back. Barks out, “Move.” No one moves.
Just the
man. On the roof. He looks down. Then he
waves. Some wave back. He looks pleased. Steps
toward us. We step back. Cop yells “Stop!” Man stands
still. Then he laughs. Starts to dance.
Near the edge. Struts his stuff. Back and forth. Flaps his arms. Like a
bird. “What’s he on?”
“Don’t
ask me.” “Will he jump?” “Hard to tell.” “What’s his name?” “No one knows.” My
neck
hurts. Sweat pours down. Dress is soaked. Late for
work. Could get canned. What do to? There’s
a man. On the roof. He steps back. Out of
sight. Is he gone? No, he’s back. On the roof. Near
the
edge. Whips off shirt. Twirls it twice.
Swings his hips. Shakes his butt. Crowd goes wild. “Hey,
Big
Spender.” “Take it off.” “Go, go, go.” Man drops shirt. Man drops pants. Clasps
his hands.
Holds
them high. Like a champ. Turns full circle. In slow motion. Big beer belly. Big white ass.
Big dumb grin. Where’s that cop? There’s a man. With no clothes. On the roof. Near the edge.
Now a woman. Two flights down. In the window. Gives a shriek. “Earl, you fool.” “Shut up,
bitch.” “You shut up.” “Go to hell.” Slams down
window. Earl’s face drops. Hangs his head.
What
to do? Now a chant. From the crowd.
“We want Earl! We want Earl!” Earl looks up. Lifts
his foot. Puts it down. On the edge. Of the roof. Starts to sway. Spreads his arms. Will he fall?
Will
he fly? What to do? There’s a man. On the roof. With no clothes. Near the edge.
There’s a
crowd. On the street. “We want Earl! We want
Earl!” I feel faint. Turn to leave. Bump a man. In
a suit. “Hey, watch out.” Scowls at me.
Then he smiles. At his pal. In a
suit. Both hands full.
“Here’s
your coffee.” “Thanks a lot. What’d I miss?” “Not a thing.” “Still up there?”
“Big as
life.” “Wish he’d hurry.” “Move it, Earl.” “Let’s go, buddy.” “Come
on, jump!” Earl looks out.
At the crowd. Steps right up. To
the edge. Curls his toes. Bends his knees. Arms out
straight.
Chin
to chest. Will he jump? Will he dive? Where’s his wife? Where’s the cop? What
to do?
There’s
a man. On the roof. With no clothes.
On the edge. I can’t look. Close my eyes. Pray like
hell. Hope to God.
[Originally
published in NHS 2011, http://www.poetspath.com/napalm/nhs11/.]