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e a r t S o n s & H e a r t D a u g h t e r s of A l l e n G i n s
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a p a l m H e a l t h S p a : R e p o r t 2 0 1 4 : A r c h i
v e s E d i t i o n
ANDY CLAUSEN
Judas Talks To Jesus
You
care about me, because you want think
that
you care
You
want me to understand like along
practicing
monk who has arrived
to understand this is
not an easy place
my past practices are
futile
You
wheel your chair around
when I
ask why is it not easy?
Why?
Why! You throw it back
because
we are gone before we come
because
youth is abused by the self
until
it is too old & weak
to abuse it anymore
because
the color orange is no longer
the
beach ball sun bouncing around out there
the
color orange is no longer the hallucinogenic fruit
of H. Bosch
IT is now the agent of the newspaper of death
WHY?
why why like a wall of
compassionate cynic derision
because we drink beer when we
should invent systems
because we devour meat when we should
think
about
soy beans
because
you want to make it & don’t say
you
don’t know what I’m talking about
How
long can you keep the golly shucks?
You
want to get elected to popular office?
It
doesn’t buy the first nail with me
now
you want to make it before you die
The
truth and transitory beauty isn’t enough for you
Whether
you have contributed, you judge
but
there is little change in the system
of reward and
punishment
and
there is so much self punishment
Just
because you figured your way through
because
you want something for nothing
or have added up your
nothings
and
come up with something
You
value yourself as an artist an exceptional
someone
who has touched the inner morsel
the
final fighting art of what they call ego
You
think you can give to knowledge happiness
You
posit you will earn with rarity and brilliance
no matter your mood and
mental state
so go ahead render the soft wind
attributes
of an elegant heart
approachable woman
of your illusive
victories in your conjurings
canonize and come on for suffering pilgrims
who
all can make it superior
and
validate with the stuff of gold
good fortune and every body has a chance
to crack jokes and
perorate and percolate
your
sophistries and suppositories
of cosmic proportions
go suck the hemorrhoids and boils of the
big accounts
go find some place honored and safe
go feast on candied dung
Say
there was an Adam say there was an Eve
and there existed an essential male and an
essential
female, well you wouldn’t being doing them
any favors
they die in the urinals of San Quentin
they would rather die in the despot’s torture
chamber
go head pluck on your over rehearsed
state
of the art response guaranteed
The
man and the woman, the woman and the man,
man man, woman woman, both have lost
the
pleasure of home
The
earth has become just a crash
So
go head on pull your classy goes down neat wine
and
dance to tunes that brainwash you
into
thinking you’ve earned a future
The
woman and the man are dying in laundromats
screaming
in kitchens of hell
Some
of them are down in coal mines
Some
of them have repressed all their memories
You
wanted to make a difference?
Why? What Arrogance and Youth Worship
You
purport to win by losing?
You
would want to win? knowing your victory
will
only make things a little worse
for this planet and its billions?
Or
are you still championing some
Grand Old Cause
[Originally
published in NHS 2001, http://www.poetspath.com/napalm/nhs01/clausen.html.]