Headskip
“When a skip tracer can't find his prey,
it's a dead skip,” said
Richard. I thought he said “headskip”,
as in my wife's secret pill
slip again, reported on the phone tearfully
confessed to me in L.A.
(for poetry reading) - 2nd time
this problem - less shattering than
initial lies now I think poor pill head wife
as I wake in NIGHT OF
THE LIVING DEAD t-shirt on Richard's floor
Great Wheel
Buddha festival day my wife of Nosferatu pill
head insatiable
struggling as she councils the drug addicted
in Free Clinic morbid
superhero like Blade half vampire half Hamlet
himself a vampire
hunter poor wifey what do I do?
she's stopped again
do nothing
for now
I Ching logic
and what do I do for
me?
Sit - go
home on a jet -
hold ritual
feast in our
front room
for other
students of
Lama Tharchin
Rinpoche
watch TV
go to bed
10/28/02
ACADEMY 23
I.
Friday night visiting my wife in the mental
ward one day after her
39th birthday
*
Take the bus home to watch the sex crime cop
show
II.
she can't sleep she's been depressed for months
her pill habit done
a second time this poor woman now in the suicide
ward letting me
breath
III.
Returning home Sunday night in the empty glow
bus - my wife
gets to watch ALIAS spy girl tonight on the
group TV - excited
she demonstrates kun fu kicks in the mental
ward - making me
laugh
- she just needs sleep
IV.
I tell the neighbors she's on retreat - she
does 4 sessions of
meditation in the ward - bare room decorated
w/ bright Tibetan
Buddha cards
V.
2323 Sacramento
Ward 23
“23” kabala
for
“new life”
Academy 23
novelist Burroughs'
learning
institute
study karate
Zen, yoga
fictional
school
of mind
VI.
She's out - I sit looking at the sky in the
barren parking lot behind
Walgreen's Drugs 1:04 pm as she fills a prescription
of sleep
who do I have now?
what wife occupies that body?
11/15-11/19/02