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Stands to Reason

If when 20, 14-year-old boys seemed cute to you,
If at 40, 20-year-old youths seemed cute to you,
If at 60, 40-year-old men seemed cute to you,
If at 80, 60-year-old men seemed cute to you,
If at 100, 80-year-old men seemed cute to you,
If as a just-dead corpse, 100-year-old men
††††††††††† seemed cute to you,
If as a rotting corpse, just-dead corpses
††††††††††† that havenít begun to rot seemed cute to you,
If as a just-defleshed white skeleton,
††††††††††† rotting corpses seemed cute to you,
If as a disintegrating white skeleton,
††††††††††† just-defleshed white skeletons seemed cute to you,
If as a skeleton turned to dust,
††††††††††† disintegrating white skeletons seemed cute to you,
If as dust in smaller particles from skeletons turned to dust,
††††††††††† larger particles of dust from skeletons turned to dust
††††††††††† ††††††††††† seemed cute to you,

SoĖĖWhat next?
Molecules of memories of desire
Reflect light clinging to dust motes
††††††††††† floating in shafts of sunlight
††††††††††† ††††††††††† in abandoned attics
††††††††††† in abandoned old farmhouses
††††††††††† ††††††††††† till dust mites magnified 10,000 times
††††††††††† devour dust motes for dinner
While pure nothingness longs for
Rotting human corpsefleshsmell
Like a 14-year-old boy in awe
††††††††††† of his bestfriendís hairless armpit aroma
††††††††††† ††††††††††† on a summer afternoon
††††††††††† wondering if he eats his own semen
††††††††††† ††††††††††† when he jacks off
††††††††††† will he be more immortal?



For All a Baby Knows


If a baby doesnít know it has a Mother till itís born,
††††††††††† what do we not know we have
††††††††††† ††††††††††† till after we die?
If a baby doesnít know itís inside its Mother
††††††††††† what are we inside of
††††††††††† ††††††††††† we donít know weíre inside of?
A baby in the womb doesnít know itís in the womb,
Doesnít know itís inside anything,
Has no idea thereís anything outside
††††††††††† the amniotic ocean it floats in,
No idea itís surrounded by a living being
††††††††††† that has an outside,
A living being breathing, walking, talking, touching,
††††††††††† seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting,
††††††††††† ††††††††††† thinking, sleeping, dreaming, loving,
A baby in the womb has no idea
††††††††††† its Mother loves cool September breezes
††††††††††† ††††††††††† floating through the twilight window
††††††††††† with cricket dreamtime energy.
And a baby in utero doesnít know
††††††††††† thereís an outside world
††††††††††† ††††††††††† of light and objects
††††††††††† and other pregnant Mothers
††††††††††† ††††††††††† with babies inside them not knowing
††††††††††† and human society and history and
††††††††††† ††††††††††† geography, geology, astronomy,
††††††††††† zoology, botany, ecology
††††††††††† ††††††††††† or an affectionate puppy
††††††††††† that sleeps next to the Mother.
What about us?Whatís outside us we donít know about?
For all a baby knows what itís in
††††††††††† extends outward forever
††††††††††† ††††††††††† the way deep sea fish
††††††††††† who never come to the surface
††††††††††† ††††††††††† or swim to the Ocean floor
††††††††††† never know thereís an Ocean floor under them
††††††††††† ††††††††††† or Ocean surface above them with sky above it
††††††††††† and think the Sea goes on in every direction forever?
If a dog can hear a baby sucking its thumb in the womb
††††††††††† and the baby has no idea dogs exist or ears exist,
What do we have no idea of that exists,
††††††††††† that hears our most intimate sounds?
What do we have that we have no idea of
††††††††††† that nurses our just-born souls after death
††††††††††† ††††††††††† with invisible milk
††††††††††† from its invisible sweet-smelling breasts?