Facing the
Horror
by David Cope
Song of Napalm, by Bruce Weigl. The Atlantic Monthly Press, 70 pages, hardcover. $13.00.
NAM, Selected Poems
by Bill Shields. P.O. Press, 35
pages, chapbook. $3.00.
When
I published Robert Borden's famous Vietnam poem, "Meat Dreams," in
the Nada Poems
anthology, I did so because I believed his work revealed firsthand that
pain that only half of my generation knew: their pain was not the anguish of college students realizing
for the first time that their government was not always just, or the anger of a
young man seeing his childhood friends come home in a box. Their pain was the dioxin their bodies
absorbed, the physical and mental wounds that come from daily rounds of bullets
and blood. I believed in Borden's
poem, but was quite unprepared for the number and quality of Vietnam poems that
have appeared in my mailbox since that publication.
The
news has, for years, told us about the tortured vets diving under their beds screaming
every time a truck backfires, the slowly dying dioxin-sprayed dutiful ones, the
men and women struggling in their nightmares to come to terms with their
experiences; but here, finally, some of them have made those experiences into
art. The best of
these—Borden's poem, Song of Napalm by Bruce Weigl, and the
little pamphlet, NAM,
by Bill Shields, are all poignant examples of this
Vietnam vet poetry. These poems
come out of the same tradition of first-hand testimony that made Whitman's war
poems and prose so eloquent; they carry the same scars as the poems of Wilfred
Owen and Siegfried Sassoon, and like them, they do not flinch at what they see.
Shields'
little book, published by P.O. Press in Long Beach, California, features poems
mostly written in a similar small form to that practiced by Borden; the poems
are often brief, deftly objectivist in their approach, and collectively form a
single larger poem that completes the vision:
We wouldn't let
him fall
the M-16 rounds
swept him off his feet
dancing, his
newly-dead body
swayed with the
impact of each bullet
falling forward
then blown back
flimsy as a scarecrow
in a tornado
his blood misted
around his dancing feet
till someone blew a
claymore
& scattered the body for acres
this evening I
washed the dishes & the kids
put everyone to
bed
& had a beer to my own sadness
swaying out there in
the perimeter
with a dead Viet
Cong
one eye wide open
Shields' poems
are often little cinemas of past horrors invading his present life. There is no resolution; the poems do not complete the circle to find peace beyond
that horror, but perhaps that is the message he intended: once we have opened the door to horrors
such as these, they do not go away.
Some will never find peace, and others will find it only by harrowing
their own souls after the physical experiences pass. Thus:
She had me dead
on my feet
the grenade no
more than a yard away
in those little
hands
laughing she threw it
at my feet
I leaped back
falling into her
closet
the urine running
down my legs
& she said, 'Do it again, daddy"
do it again
daddy
Weigl's Song of Napalm, published by the Atlantic Monthly Press, completes
the circle, but only in the most intense and frightening way:
Into the black
understanding they marched
until the angels
came
calling their names,
until they rose, one
by one from the blood.
The light
blasted down on them.
The bullets
sliced through the razor grass
so there was not
even time to speak.
The words would
not let themselves be spoken.
Some of them
died.
Some of them
were not allowed to.
The author
leads us through his tour of duty, remembering the man who blew himself to bits
in the temple near Quang Tri, his own horror at
watching his companion slamming a woman to her knees, "the plastic butt of
his M-16 crashing down on her."
He recalls the bar girl he paid for, her fingers running up and down her
terrible scars, and, of course, the title poem:
.
.
. the girl runs only as far
as the napalm
allows
until her burning
tendons and crackling
muscles draw her up
into that final
position
burning bodies so
perfectly assume.
The latter part
of the book focuses on Weigl's difficulty coming
home. In "The Soldier's Brief
Epistle," he addresses those who "think you're better than me"
because he did what they may only have imagined, coming to terms finally with
the memory of those he killed as his real brothers. In "Dialectical
Materialism," he returns to Hanoi in 1985, to a peaceful market scene of
smoked ducks strung up in a row, and old men and children, "their black
and white laughter all around us."
He recalls the intense American bombardment of the city, and the poem
settles, finally, on a conversation with a man filling buckets to water his
crops:
He doesn't say
how he must have
huddled
those nights with
his family,
how he must have
spread himself
over them
until the village
bell
called them back to
their beds.
There are
questions which
people who have
everything
ask people who
have nothing
and they do not
understand.
It has been
said that war is the price people pay when their leaders are unjust or
incompetent, or that lack of territory or food drives men to kill. A prominent psychologist, Dr. Anthony
Stevens, argues in The Roots of War that certain archetypal imperatives in our
personalities drive us to that frenzy.
Stevens feels that unless we learn to recognize and transcend those
imperatives, understanding what drives us, we are doomed to repeat this most
insane failing of our common humanity.
Perhaps the first step toward peace—whether in the community as a
whole, or individually, for these wounded men and women among us—is to
recognize that horror as a part of ourselves we'd pretend is not our own, to
face it and take responsibility for it.
As with Borden's "Meat Dreams," the poems of Weigl and Shields begin that process; at the same time,
these works serve as poignant warnings to those growing up now in their GI Joe
and Rambo dreams of fighting as a great adventure.